st@rt>> Sometimes I dont really understand myself either But, this woman, no she is not a woman yet, this girl, she seems to know what I have been thinking. I do, I really almost did burst into tears when she knew what I felt all this while, when we talked it over the phone yesterday. Yes, I agree with her, m someone who dont share my things to everyone, either work or personal, or mayb I should say, m afraid? I remain silent, as I always believe silence is golden. Though I was being misunderstood for certain things sometimes, I dont defend myself, I will nod and say, ok, that's alright, this will be fine, you will know someday that this is not my fault. I 'locked' myself in my own zone, I have been closing the door all the time, and only open to certain friends when they knock the door. This sounds awful, but this is the truth. m trying to change all this while, but this damn thing just like a ghost within me. The door locked itself since 3yrs ago, and the